Love and Life...Both Are Complicated

It's been a rough few days on me. My head is still spinning from all the stuff going on, and I'm thinking more and more about just leaving this mess and going to NY for a permanent vacation. Something about that city soothes my soul...the chaos going on in it makes my little messes seem not so vital to the everday. I can't even begin to describe the hell that this last week has brought.
Number one, I went to the doctor and she told me I'm severely deficient in iron, which is why I've felt so sluggish and tired these past few weeks.

Number two, my might-be-an-ulcer-if-I'm-not-careful (aka Lucy) had been bothering me constantly, so my holistic doctor gave me some herb based pills to take to clean my body of its impurities, and hopefully stop the ulcer from really causing me pain like they did last time and man, are they working, but my face looks like a minefield...yep, my perfect clear skin is riddled with pimples. I went to him to see what that was about, but he said it was just a side effect of the pills. So, I'm taking them to hurry up and get them outta the way, and he says that I should feel better internally after and that my skin should clear up. Should, being the operative word, but I'm getting some Proactiv just in case.

Number three, I'm taking two classes this summer, Biology and Biology. Sounds like fun, eh? Yeah...right. I hate bio. Cannot stand it with every fiber of my being, so I'll be at school just...foundling along.

Number four, paper still isn't done. Stuff just keeps poppin up! I can't do anything for all these interruptions and people wanting me to do this and do that...I feel like I'm getting pulled in all sorts of directions.

Number five, a good friend of mine has cancer. She's so young and so full of life and energy...it's a shame. She has kids too, and me having watched that in my life...just makes me horribly sad. Memories keep flooding back and it's not really something I want to deal with now. I'm saving that for Dr. Phil.

Number six, I need to get my life together. And a summer job might be nice too.

Ashley

New York, New York

So instead of having a party on my birthday, I'm going to New York. I'm either gonna crash at my dad's vacant apartment or stay with the love of my pre-man sabbatical life. I'd rather stay at his place, since it's more homey... but we'll see. It's all about shopping, shopping and more shopping. I'm actually gonna try to get stuff straight with my dad once and for all. I'm looking forward to it.

Who's down? I'm trying to go and soon. Stay in some shitty NY hotel or hostel, go out dancing, have a good time sipping lattes in the village, eat knishes outside of Madison Square Garden, go to Coney Island and eat lobster rolls while riding the Cyclone until we vomit. Drinks at the 40/40, shopping on 5th avenue, walks in Central Park, seeing the Statue of Liberty, taking dorky pictures, see something on Broadway.....just live it up a few days. Sound good? Any takers?

Ashley Robin

Catch Me While I'm Sleepin...Maybe While I'm Dreaming Too...

I don't want to go to school anymore for this year. I just want to chill out until the fall. However, if I blow this summer off, I'll have nothing to show for it, so back to school I go. Sigh...lol. These last two weeks are the HARDEST! Not that class has gotten more challenging, but it's more of a challenge for me to want to go...lol. I've got a research paper to tackle this weekend, and I have no real plan on doing it. That's in theory what tomorrow is for...spending time researching sources and putting some kind of theory together. However, I just got an XBOX 360 and it's in the same room as my computer and stuff. I hope I can be strong enough to work first and play later.

Got an interview tomorrow with a promotions company. I don't know what they want me to do, since they asked me to come in, but we'll see.

Also, why is it when I decide to take a sabbatical from men....the one man I was with in a relationship, the one who was the mystery, decides to confess his love for me? That's a whole other blog, but I'm still doing the solo thing. I don't plan on giving that up for a while...I just finished watching two of my friends who were together bicker and fight for no damn reason...I vowed to myself that I won't let that be me. I just won't. I'll be alone for my entire life before I play the 'who can hurt the other the worst' game. It's not my style.


P.S.- Errbody knows Tom and Katie had the baby. I just want to know, what the hell is a Sumi? Mom told me Sumi was her name, and I said, "Semi? why would someone name their kid Semi?" then she explained all that "it means this in farsi bs" whatever! What happened to nice names, like Quietasha and Buygoletta or Shantienese....?

Big Kudos to my girl Jade kicking butt on ANTM. No one I know likes her, but I do. I think she's got serious moxie. Also, I think Pickler should have been voted off Idol...she gets on my nerves. Ace should have stayed.

Stay gorgeous...
Ash